| | So I've had Xanga for a little over 8 years. I've thought of making ALL of what I posted public, but a good majority of it is useless to anyone that isn't me and that's like 99.99% of the world.
I've spent some time thinking why I should keep it. I've also spent some time thinking why I shouldn't delete it since I've had it since I was 18. The strangest thing is that while I've had it, I know very few people have actually read it. I've also refrained from gathering too big a following on here. What should I do? Should I keep ranting, or do something more productive that involves talking about how I feel? Should I continue to update Xanga as a release? Or release more music? Should I do it just as some sort of vault that may be kept as some sort of archival memory?
I don't know.
What I do know is that I have rarely updated this page since 2008. Back before I was a bit more active for many reasons. One of them being that I was in a relationship that was ten times more harmful than it was helpful. The reason for this relationship being so destructive is the fact that this girl believed for the longest time that she was the 'rebound'. While this is probably true, it's no excuse for her being a total shaft on so many levels.
Another reason was that I was a bit more musically active. Sure I didn't actually release anything until 2006, but hey. What can I say. I've had this since 2004.
Another reason was that my life consisted of going to college every day and I would get seriously bored in class, and end up blogging in Word while pretending to take notes. Funny? Yes. Good for my grades? Probably not. Epic? Hardly. Sad? Maybe.
The truth of the matter is that I had no friends; I never aspired to have any. It's something I never needed. Since, you know I had like three real friends. One of which has been more reliable than death.
So I say this to you. I may update this again in the coming days. I may not. Fear not, I am alive. I am alive and well
-Jake
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